The Hang of that Blog Voice

I've typically never had a problem writing.  It's the one thing I feel that I can do competently, and my blog was always a place to just let it flow freely.  The sidebar on my Facebook page says "Write what disturbs you, what you fear, what you have not been willing to speak about."  But for some reason, over the last year or so, I've begun to feel more reserved.  Not just on the blog, but writing in general.  It happened when the old Alex gave up the ghost last summer and disappeared on me--losing the main aspect of my identity saved my life, but it came at a great cost.  This blog is just the smallest outlet that paid the price.

I miss the way I used to write.  I had some pretty ugly subject matter but I shy away from that now for a plethora of reasons that can be summed up: because I don't want to "over" share.  I feel like people don't want to read negative posts about abuse and PTSD and my failure at life all the time.  But the solution isn't to cut off that one small area where I feel comfortable expressing myself--maybe it's to do it slightly differently, or try out new things...not shut up altogether.

Anyway, that's what I wanted to announce--to do things differently, I've decided to start vlogging.  I have been slowly warming up to the idea for a long time and finally think I'm ready.  I won't be solely vlogging, and will still write on this blog because writing>speaking.  But I wanted to write about a few of the reasons why I made this change here, for reference.

That said, if you'd like to subscribe to my YouTube channel (which is hilariously bare) you can get updates whenever I have something interesting to say.  Until then!


  1. Hi P! Miss you and Henri! Hope you're both ok! xoxo :)

  2. Vlogging could be interesting! I get nervous in front of the camera, but I've decided to try making more videos on my snapchat, so it's like baby vlogging lol.