8.15.2015

The Breaking Point.

All photos taken at Great Salt Lake Marina.



"There comes a time when you look into the mirror and you realize that what you see is all that you will ever be. And then you accept it. Or you kill yourself. Or you stop looking in mirrors."
 -Tennessee Williams



"Even if all your life is fighting and struggle, it can still have meaning."


Here I am in this same old cycle again.  But I heard it described in a more hopeful way recently; it's not a circle, more of an outgoing spiral.  Slowly revolving around my past and inching away from it slowly, in a way that doesn't seem like I'm making any progress.

And to be perfectly frank, I still don't care.  I'm still tired, I still feel like it would be best if I weren't around.  Some very fantastic people have come forward to say that they disagree, and I believe them when they say that it would hurt them if I left.  So I'm still here, thanks to them, and I'm still here because of them.

“It is because I think so much of warm and sensitive hearts, that I would spare them from being wounded.” 
-Oliver Twist

9 comments :

  1. I like the idea of a spiral vs. a circle. Progress will be slow, but it will be made. And please put me on the list of people who disagree - while I have never met you in person, I know that you have so much to give and to do.

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    1. You are sweet <3 thank you for saying that.

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  2. I know this struggle. It has taken a LOT, but it's been three years since suicide has been an option in my mind. I never believed it would, but it DOES get better.

    I also LOVE the idea of a spiral. Love it.

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    1. Thank you for your comment <3 I am happy to hear it got better for you...three years is a long time! Let's hope I make it.

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  3. I think I'm still in the not looking at mirrors phase, but I'm looking forward to moving outward. Thank you for this post.

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    1. hahaha don't worry, I get you. I sometimes go into not looking into mirrors territory. I think that's probably normal.

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  4. This post came at a good time. Just the night before last I was, once again, at a breaking point. Although, I still have hope and know that I can persevere. What's the worst is when hope is gone, so, although painful, I know it can be much worse. Thank-you for the quotes.

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    1. I'm glad that my post helped even in some small way. I was completely without hope until a few days ago, so I know exactly what you mean. It can always be worse. I'm here if you ever need to talk.

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  5. It's a rough thing. You can do it. You're so pretty too.

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